God's Timing

Hey everyone - it's been a while since I've blogged. Been a busy summer. I guess most all of you have heard the news that the Search Committee at Westgate asked me to take the position of Preschool and Children's Ministry Coordinator. There are still some things to come that will need to be done - like church vote, etc. - important things to be sure. But I am so excited - first of all that they consider me qualified to do this job and second that God would place me there.

Since I was saved I have dedicated, surrendered, given -- whatever words you want to use - my life to God. It is His to be used for His purposes and His glory. Several times I've renewed that commitment to Him and reminded myself by doing so that my life is not my own. I have been bought with a price and He is free to do with me what He wants. In saying that, though, I have had my input with Him. Two times in the last 25 years I have asked Him for something that I wanted whether it was His will or not. I just wanted to do those two things so much that I asked Him to just let me do them whether they were His will or not. Both times he said "okay" and after I got what I wanted, I was so very unhappy.

One of those times resulted in just a short-term effect that didn't matter too much - a little inconvenience really, but not so bad. I had some experiences with it and when it was all done, I was sort of glad I did it. It didn't turn out like I wanted or solve all my problems, but it wasn't a life-shattering event.

But the other time was life-altering for me. He gave me a freedom from a burden He had placed in my care that was too heavy. I asked to be free from it and He said "okay" and even though in years since I have asked Him to give that back, He hasn't. I've never been able to do that ministry again.

So when this opportunity of church ministry came up, I learned from my past. Never again do I want to make life-changing decisions without His guidance, His direction, His presence with me in it and His purposes being at the forefront. This is what I asked when I began to pray about the position at Westgate and I desperately searched my heart to be sure my reasons for wanting this position was to further His kingdom through my life.

So whichever way it turns out, yes or no, I'm happy with it. Of course, living in my own home and sleeping in my own bed every night would be nice too.

The final decision of this - the if and when of it - is already known by the One Who knows everything! He'll tell us when He's ready.

I appreciate your prayers for me as well as Westgate during the next few weeks as final decisions are made.